Made it on time to #NPSF yesterday(1), first time in weeks (months?). And to yoga this morning, or so I thought, actually 30 min early(2). I knew the past 3 months would be intense, my time was blocked out for work(+travel+organizing+speaking) & ultra training (https://tantek.com/t53e1), and nothing else. Tiring time zone changes and long trail runs meant choosing sleep, missing some NPSF workouts, or being late. IndieWebCamp SF 12/7-8 was my last commitment of 3 months, and I barely had the energy for it after actively observing the TC39 standards meetings that week before. I had no reserve for setbacks (like my water heater breaking the night before I hosted Thanksgiving for family). Such packed time & focus seemingly invited an unexpected & intense arc of joy, a story for another time. Still making sense of that night after IndieWebCamp SF, despite managing to bake my first blueberry pie (https://tantek.com/t5451). Recovery since has been hard, both from being drained, and from needing to reflect on what I could have done better, to be sustainably better, instead of a crash & burn of sorts. A better friend, healer, and lover, in that order. For now I’m rebuilding, and small temporal victories are one sign of progress.

Blue grey sky, mostly cloudy, sunrise lighting barely peaking through some of the clouds, just above the cityscape in the background, a single palm tree in the foreground at Alta Plaza park.

Inside the yoga room at Baptiste Yoga San Francisco, light coming in from the one window, lighting up a single yoga mat, blocks, towels, and water bottle.

Made it on time to #NPSF yesterday(1), first time in weeks (months?). And to yoga this morning, or so I thought, actually 30 min early(2).

I knew the past 3 months would be intense, my time was blocked out for work(+travel+organizing+speaking) & ultra training (https://tantek.com/t53e1), and nothing else. Tiring time zone changes and long trail runs meant choosing sleep, missing some NPSF workouts, or being late. IndieWebCamp SF 12/7-8 was my last commitment of 3 months, and I barely had the energy for it after actively observing the TC39 standards meetings that week before. I had no reserve for setbacks (like my water heater breaking the night before I hosted Thanksgiving for family). Such packed time & focus seemingly invited an unexpected & intense arc of joy, a story for another time.

Still making sense of that night after IndieWebCamp SF, despite managing to bake my first blueberry pie (https://tantek.com/t5451). Recovery since has been hard, both from being drained, and from needing to reflect on what I could have done better, to be sustainably better, instead of a crash & burn of sorts. A better friend, healer, and lover, in that order.

For now I’m rebuilding, and small temporal victories are one sign of progress.